Start of a New Beginning- Sixth Grain Falls

Today's blog is relatively short because it is the day where the school will let out the students for our school's Spring Break. I don't know what I''l be able to do over the break but I know that each day will be a surprise adventure for me.

I kind of dread that the grades will be given out I know that I have to work harder next time around. Everything is going by fast now so it'll be harder to keep up with the homework and such but that's apart of the high school experience.

It's just that now more than ever I will have to work even harder to maintain my GPA and my grades have to stay up or else I'll be in big trouble with my parents.

Reconcile- Fifth Grain Falls

I feel better about how I feel about something. Although, I still feel a bit uneasy about it I feel that I can cope with it better than I would've before. I still wonder about it from time to time and I still feel a little uneasy about what to do next but I know it's going to be okay.

Even if I want to run away or get lost in my own imagination about the situation I know that I can't keep it inside forever. So when I told someone about the problem I was having with this emotion, I felt like everything was going to be okay and that I shouldn't give up just yet on how I feel.

What I feel isn't bad like suicide or anything so don't worry. It's more of a happy feeling that I don't have much experience in. So of course it scares me to even think of the outcome but in the back of my mind what I feel isn't bad. It's only bad when it's used for wrong reasons although I know that what I feel is true. 

So I'm learning to reconcile with what I feel about this emotion. It'll take time to let this feeling go out to who I want to receive it but I think it'll be worth it in the end.

Out of Touch- Fourth Grain Falls

 

Have you ever felt out of touch with friends and family?

I do, although I try to remain in contact with them the other person doesn't want to talk to me over e-mail. It kind of makes me feel sad when I try to engage a conversation and the other person doesn't want to talk with me. But, I feel like it's my fault, I rarely even talked to the other person so you can say that I fell out of touch with them. It may as well be karma getting back at me, although when I see the person they are so happy to see me and ask me questions about how I have been and such.
  
It makes me happy to see them well and glad that they are happy to see me as well, but I always think in the back of my mind why they don't talk to me online. It makes more sense since I can't see them all the time like I want to but why won't they talk to me that way? I can't help but wonder about it.

Oh well, maybe the next time I see the person I can ask them that. That is, if they can let me get in a few words and if my family doesn't butt in and waste the time I get to see them. Who knows maybe we can start to talk again online. 

People are never really out of touch they are just waiting for the perfect time to say "Hello again."